my bird

my beautiful bird of desires has flown

i saw it going away

it flew higher and higher

and higher

and i watched it

against the fresh and wet blue sky

my bird seemed beautiful

but it was fading away

and now

i am not able to locate it

the sky too

is no longer

fresh and blue....

dark clouds have covered it

it will rain soon...

my bird

come back

back home

we'll wait

till the sky is fresh and wet blue again

and we will fly together then

yes

we will fly together...

Stray white drops in the sky

White drops of your essence are spread across the sky
Numerous lives throbbing with the warmth to excite
Peeping at the world with sparkle in the eye
Expecting the welcome of a lotus to confine.

Fume of the dark horse surrounds the wild
Child of the white mud is dark and horrified
Tossing and toiling till it mingled in the wild
'I see stray white drops in the sky' it cried.

can't escape
the you
in me.
Though you sometimes hurts
it never leaves
me alone.
Suffering with me
the pangs
you grew
old enough to be me.
Rainbow
you shows me.

Horses came running
past you
past me
trod the bloom
they withered.
Smell remains
the perfume
i can feel it in my nose.
It is you.

The cotton
it touched my skin
coarse
spines
around your lips

Horses came running
past you
past me
trod the bloom
they withered.
Spines remain
piercing
i can feel it on my skin.
It is you.

WERE THEY RIGHT AFTER ALL??
One day i was watching wild dogs on Animal Planet. Dogs are social animals and they have a well-knit family structure. The children are looked after by every adult in the family jointly. There are various couples in the family. And there is one head couple of the family. This couple jointly takes decisions for all the family members and they are the king and the queen of the clan. Well, this is the structure all over the animal kingdom. What captured my attention was the fact that this couple does not breed and have no children of their own! It means they practice celibacy! (We can not expect dogs to use contraceptives of course!) This made me think of another fact. In the family of elephants it is the mother elephant that decides who is going to be the mate of her daughter. And yet another fact. There are some species of birds who believe in one love. Cranes, crows etc, it has been observed, are so passionate about their partners that they die in grief if their partner dies. They remain with the single partner throughout their lives like true soulmates. What does that mean? Are these really virtues- one love, loyalty, celibacy, the king and the queen?! It seems, we must think again before deciding what is natural and what is being imposed upon us through social constructs. It may be that the thing which seems to be imposed upon us by this social system was actually our natural instinct and not a forced thing!

(What's wrong with me??.. I used to love rebellion!!)

Don't i have the right to know
what lies behind your dark words
why is it that evry time
my desire to know you
crumbles down
in a heap of confusions
your words seem
the ghosts of the contempt
that you nursed
when all the while
i saw
a smile
that beamed on me
through your dark eyes..

You are the sky
And i loved you
Azure you shined, you invited me
I had my desire, my wings
I flew


You are the sky, so uncertain
Capricious you are and gloomy
You thunder and roar
And i am flying
Exalted I am and lonely.

Let's face it
You know you can not escape
You know it
You may create a hovel of your own
but your spirit has a tendency to grow
How will you curb it?
The fact is that
you are a human being
a homo sapiens
and it is your tendency to look beyond your physical existence....
Boy!!
you cannot escape.